i wish...

i wish for a lot of things...
mostly i wish for myself..
i know..
selfish i am..

but then again... i only get to wish..

Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - When I Look At You lyrics

i wish that i get to sing this to someone..

Him who shall not be remembered

my first day working outside was a good one.. so many things i learned.. mingling with people or strangers... walking with confidence and keeping your head high while with other people... however yesterday was a day that's too much that i had to take... i had a fever at the end of the day.. and end up sleeping early..

i saw him yesterday... the last person that i taught i would meat.. but fortunately we just pass by each other... at that moment i was going out of the PWTC entrance while busy chit chatting with Sue.. and then it caught my eyes...
he was looking at me.. his eyes were as if he was making sure whether its really me or not..

I HATE HIM...

i hate him soo much that it makes me shiver for a moment... just a moment..

i need a moment of silence...

and not to think anything.. but shamelessly my eyes were red..

but im not stupid.. crying over some worthless men..

his just a bad history... a history that should never be repeated...

and yes i HATE him.. i shall not revenge.. nor shall i think about him at all.. its a shame for me to admit that its hard... but it is very hard for me... as i wish not to say out his name or shall tell a story bout him.. i still end up still telling...

thus from NOW, i shall not mention his name or anything that had got to do with him...

HISTORY..

END OF STORY

but My Life is My Life..

my life is so beautiful with my family and friends... and they are all what i had.... but i like to fill the empty space in my heart at the right time and at the right moment..

i pray for myself and for all of you people.. to be happy and prosperous..

as you who will fill my empty space for now..

have you?

have you ever
had a feeling so strong that it make you feel sick?

have you ever
scared of something that it makes you feel like you want to pee?

have you ever
want something so badly that it makes you shiver?

have you ever
feel tired of waiting and knowing that you had to wait some more?

have you ever
scared of the reality and facts that you have to face?

have you?
have you?
have you?
have you?

well i do..

just about now...

Me Time

so nak cerita ape ehh hari ni?..tadi pagi macam banyak benda nak cerita and tak sabar2 nak taip blog.. hmmm... let me think~

owhh hari ni sampai awal...awal gila gak laaa... around 7.40am i think...i was the first one to arrived at my floor.. the first one to open the office..and some of the lights are still not turn on in the walk way.. when the lift open it was a lil bit dark... but then i'm not scared..but then proud to be the 1st one to arrive at my floor.. usually i'm the first one to arrive at my office.. but today i break the record to be the first one to arrive at my the floor..huuuuuuuhu!! Yeahhh!! hahahha

i take my seat behind this small cubicle...immediately turned on the laptop and eat my breakfast. Bibik yang masak~.. i bungkuskan jerr...

it was quite..

it was peaceful..

it was heaven...

but i like it only when its in the morning...because to start off the day we need some time to adjust..to plan what to do.. and of course to enjoy breakfast ..hehheh.. anyway breakfast is the most important meal right?..heheh

The point IS...

We do NEED time on our own..